Not again?!...

AArrgghhhh...not again?!! I could really beat myself for letting it slip the 2nd time. It happenned yesterday, and on the usual hour. Hearing the elevator dings "Going down", I rushed down the aisle that leads to it, not wanting to wait for the next. (yeah...my lift can talk and hell annoying at times!). I knew i may not make it, then a face which was all too familiar to me peered from the side of the elevator. There she was! I could not comprehend my good fortune, what luck i thought?! "Are you coming", said she. I hasten speed, and got onto the lift.

Words were exchange, but my gaze was fixed on her. "Yoga?," I asked. A question that made her chuckled, surprised that i could remember. Ahh...Tuesday & Saturday. My thoughts turned to the weather as soon as we alight from the elevator. Rain please, rain!, were my very thoughts. Offering her a lift, kept playing on my mind. But to my dismay, not a drop! Only a dark gloomy sky. She waved goodbye and was soon on her way, the very opposite direction that i would take home.

Rain then begun to fell, little as it may be, I turned around wanting nothing but to plea my luck once more. Alas, she was no longer there. Another chance, not but wasted.

A chance slipped...

It was a Tuesday night, a night which i could beat myself for letting a chance slipped by me. It was the usual heavy downpour. I hesitantly made my way down from my place of work dreading the jam that lies installed for me. The door slides open as the lift dings at 'G'. There she was, rummaging through her bag by her side for an umbrella. She nod a hi as i stepped out of the lift. Rushing to somewhere, so seem she as she hasten pace to the front door. I ask of where she was going. Yoga, she said. Never would i understand such slow excruciating exercise, holistic so it seem. But braving the harsh rain for such exercise?! She must be devoted then. The thought of offering her a ride kept playing on my mind, tis my thought and tongue did not sync.

Not before long, she flipped her umbrella opened and soon glide into the dark of the night as i looked on. Was i not but late again?!

Rage...

If i had a wish, it would be to forget yesterday or undo the incident for that matter. Rage! Rage that would make even hell's fire seem lukewarm in my fury. I spoke of words that i barely comprehend, faster than that that i could grasp. These piercing words, that gushed unceasingly, would have cost but a wound which would take a life-time to mend. Close was i to hurting her; she that i love most, her hands that rocked my 'sarung', that held mine through my darkest of days, that shared my joy, even tears that i shed in quiet. All these but for my insensible buying. I lay that night reminiscing, in utter shame of my action. I understood not of what i have done.

She i swore to protect, even lay down my life for; Now i hurt. I am sorry, mom!

A glimmer of hope...

The aftermath of my horrendous mistake last Friday, which hovered over my mind all weekend, took a pleasant turn. She actually came up and spoke to me! Of what actually happenned; being busy with meetings, couldn't return my message, blah blah blah. But all that mattered no more, gibberish so it seem to my pre-occupied mind. My focus was set only on her countenance. She spoke but not of what i comprehend, only her voice treading sweet resonance in my ears. Was this not but falling short of heaven itself in all its awe? So was what i felt.

My mind raced at each of her paused, trying relentlessly to keep this conversation going. But alas, all good things have to come to an end. I struggled to keep her face within my gaze, not even my limitless brain-juice squirted no help. The battle within was lost, the conversation was over. She graced herself back to her place, oblivious to my peering eye. I pray now no more than for another glimmer of heaven.

My hope, thus was renewed.

A bad start, perhaps?!

What wrong is a man to stand on a common ground and to present a question? Weird so say she. Peculiar?! For heaven's sake, it was only to inquire an account of another from one that i
know! So much so for a name. Bah!

This day of reckoning, so i thought, leaves now no more than a bitter taste. How disillusioned was i?! To be made to believe that heaven has made its face to shine upon me. Woe be that day. Fault was mine nonetheless.

The beginning...

"In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth...

...Then God said, 'Let us make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.'
So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him;
male and female he created them..." Genesis 1:1 - 1:27-28.

Eventually, Man in all his wisdom created the Tandas.

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This is my begining, my very first posting. Finding it really difficult even to post picture to my profile.The pictures keeps getting posted as an item instead of getting into the profile...aarrgghhh. finally, i got tat darn picture in!*phew* the hard work i tell you.

Will keep posting soon from the throne, tis my place of inspiration.